I can anylize and rationalize til' the cows come home but the plain truth is that I have been doing terrible.
Where has all of my motivation, will power and determination gone?
Last January when I started this journey I jumped in with both feet and dropped 20 pounds in no time. Then things slowed down, which is to be expected, but I kept up the good fight and I had lost a total of 42 pounds. I didn't weigh in today so I don't know where I am at currently, but I feel like I've put a pound or two back on.
I do not want to go back to my old ways (eating without and limitations and zero exercise save for getting up to make another trip to the fridge). I don't want to gain weight back (42 pounds is a lot of weight!). I don't want to be exhausted all the time again (it's amazing the energy you gain when you lose the equivalent to a preschooler).
I need a little elecrtic shock colar that will buzz me when I head back into the kitchen for the 5th time and that will get me moving when I don't feel like sweating. Ok, maybe I don't want to get zapped literally - but I do need to stop slipping back into my old ways!!
Maggie had posted on her blog asking if anyone wanted to 'buckle down' with her. Get back to what worked in the beginning. It just so happens that her sucessful beginning started with SparkPeople, same as me.
I will sign on tomorrow. I will track my food. I wont try to pile on a bunch of expectations. I'll take it slow and be gentle on myself, but not give myself excuses!
There is no reason I should not have a loss this week. (but I guess I'll have to weigh in tomorrow so I will know my starting point) If I'm not posting next Monday about a loss, please feel welcome to give me a virtual slap of reality. Enough! I can do this and I am worth the time and effort!!
"I AM THANKFUL" Challenge ~ Day 15
Today I am thankful for music. I love all kinds; oldies (30's, 40's, 50's, some 60's), country, show tunes, classical, big band, Christian contemporary, gospel, etc.. I'm always amazed at how a song can take me back to a particular memory (like when I hear 'Tainted Love' I'm back on a dance floor in a little pub in England where I went with two friends after graduation high school), or a certain feeling ("It's A Great Day To Be Alive" from Travis Tritt always puts me in a good mood). Music is so powerful!
If I need to get my but in gear and get some cleaning done, I pop in some big band. If I want to prepare myself before beginning my quiet time there's nothing like a worship CD. When I'm crafting I like oldies or show tunes (I guess they make me feel creative).
I LOVE music!! In my CD player in the kitchen right now I have Amy Grant's Christmas CD (her 1st I think). What's in your CD player?
Have a great week folks!!