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Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Week 41 ~ This is a tough one

Short & sweet this week folks.  Not so sweet actually.

Surrounded by sadness at the moment.
We have a wonderful lady from our church family who is very ill with cancer.  What a blessing she has been and although we will celebrate her homegoing for her sake, we will miss her!!  Just a matter of time...

My sister-in-law's dad who had a lung removed due to cancer less than a year ago now has cancer in the other lung and it has come back to the cavity where the removed lung had been. Again, a matter of time.

Today, my extreamly funny and very tender hearted uncle has died leaving his wife of 54 years, my aunt behind.  My aunt is not well either.

Life is short folks.  Tell those you love that you love them and tell them often.  If you know the Lord Jesus as your Savior don't be shy in sharing the gift of salvation as you never know who needs to hear the good news and if you'll get a chance to share again.

My heart is very heavy for all of those hurting at this hour.  I am filled with sadness, but also filled with the love of God.  I am so blessed to know him.

All of these situations bring back the feelings of losing my mother 2.5 years ago so fresh to the surface.  It hurts.


I did great last week. Ate well, did 14 miles of exercise.  The scale is barely budging though.  I am discouraged.  This virtual stand still has been going on for quite some time now.  I know what I'm doing - I know how to live healthy.  I'm eating plenty and eating a balanced healthy diet.  I'm exercising to the point of having sweat drip down me and being out of breath.  There's nothing more I can do.
Maybe this is it.  Size 18 weighing in at... nope, still not brave enough to list the number on the scale.  Maybe this is as good as it's gonna get.  I guess I have to settle for this.  I will keep being healthy but no longer look to and consequently be disappointed week after week at the lack of movement on the scale.  What a bugger!!!

No way to sugar coat it people.  I'm feeling seriously down.  I know it's just for a season though and that I wouldn't appreciate being on the moutain tops if I'm never in the valley.
So I will keep plugging along in this valley knowing that my God is with me and that what's important is that His will be done. Not mine.
Despite the aggrivation, frustration, disappointment and sadness, I will not lose my joy.  For the joy of the Lord will be my strength!!!!


  1. I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to those hurting as well.

    You will get past this slump. You have done amazing so far and as long as you keep doing what you're doing in the end I believe it will work out. You will get there. ( I say this as I haven't been doing anything excpet eating!) I love you!!! (((HUGS)))

  2. My sympathy. These are indeed sad days for you. It's odd how everything seems to pile up some weeks/months. There's nothing we can do except take each day as it comes and plug on living as best we can with all the sadness.

    It helps me to find some good music, not loud, boisterous but pleasant, worshipful and full of loving.

    Sometimes I get past the sadness and am ready for some dance. God is always there and He is Joy.

    It looks as though you are stuck at the moment but take an inventory of the things you are doing that are better for your health and well being and continue to focus on that. You're right about the scales. They don't always help. I'm sure you can write a list of general improvement and mark it on a scale of 1 - 10 for 12 months ago and again for now. Be encouraged that it's worht continuing to do things well.

    All the best and make today a good one then stitch alongside it another to the best you can.


  3. My condolences on everything that you've been through. Life is fragile and life is hard, but look at it this way...You are making a change and you are extending your life. Even if the change isn't coming as quickly as you would like it to, you're getting there! And that's what's important. The more we lose weight, the less we are at risk for all sorts of life-threatening diseases. The best way to show thanks for your body and your life is to treat it like it's the most important thing.


  4. I'm very sorry to hear about all of the sadness and grief. I know how you must feel as my grandmother was diagnosed with stage three lung cancer earlier this year. We actually find out this week whether her radiation and chemo treatments got rid of the cancer. I'm praying that you find some piece of mind in this hard time. Continue taking care of yourself.