Week 9

It's Monday - Update-day!


Well again.. It was a tough week in many ways.

I was at my counselors this morning and she said that since we talked about a lot of heavy stuff from years ago the prior week that it is typical that I would then have a tough week. So there you go. That's my excuse!

Although, one thing I'm learning about myself is that I really don't like excuses. Not for myself any way. Counselor - 'Well you were a victim. You weren't responsible, can you see that?' - me - "Yes. But that doesn't make me feel any better. Being a victim makes me feel dumb that I fell for it." Another topic... "He wasn't acting in a very Christ like manner.", me - "No. But what am I doing wrong?"

I don't like being pacified, and although I know she isn't doing that. I'm just waiting for her to say "BINGO - That's where all of your issues stem from. You're doing x,y, z wrong!" I have a hard time letting someone else be at fault. If it's someone else you see, I can't fix it. If it's me who's wrong, I can fix it, or at least try. Hmmmm.

Anyhow - back to my update (sorry for the little jaunt into my psyche). Lots of stress eating I'm sorry to say. However, my stress eating consisted of reasonably healthy food (read - I ate two 100 calorie packs instead of a whole box of regular cookies... its progress, right?!). I let my stress completely weigh me down. It drained me of my energy, which then left me not wanting to do any exercise, which would of course have helped me to have more energy... I did do one of my DVD’s once. Better than none. But definitely plenty of room for improvement.

I did well with my water and ok with sleep (slipping back to about 6 hours a night).

I have also begun a love affair with Laughing Cow Light Garlic. LOVE it! It's good on crackers, carrots, pretzels, in a potato, etc. It is not uncommon to find me licking the inside of the foil wrapper which inevitably tearing off a small piece that then hits a filling and sends me to the roof. But does that stop me the next time? Please!

I had my date with the scale this morning, the temperamental thing. I have lost 1 more pound bringing my total to 23 pounds lost. Missing those bigger numbers from January, but it's ok. I'm sure I'll see them again, especially if I exercise!

Goals for this week:
8 glasses of water (or more) each day
8 hours sleep a night
stay in my ranges
exercise 3 times (heck, I'll take 2)
take my vitamin each day
that's it for this week..

Oh, and, looking for a second job. A second paying job that is. I have more non-paying jobs than I can handle.

Head's up - It's coming up to the 2 year anniversary of my mum's death. I know this is a huge underlying factor to, well, everything. I miss her terribly!!!

It's time for me to go finish decorating my classroom. Have a great week everyone!!