First let me start by saying it is soooo time to change the look of this blog. The snowflakes have got to go! Do I hear an amen?!!
Well folks, my worst fears have come true. As has happened every time I have tried to change my life in the past, I lost 40 pounds and have now successfully put 12 lbs back on!! I'm back up a size and even those are starting to get a bit uncomfortable.
That feeling of waking up like a blob... well that's back too.
WHY WHY WHY do I do this every stinkin' time???
My frustration with myself is through the roof! It's a vicious cycle. I get angry at myself for my bad choices and weight gain so I stress, cry, eat (repeat repeat repeat).
It seems like it should be easy, doesn't it? If you feel gross and hate yourself for gaining weight then stop. Just stop. Stop overeating. Stop making terrible choices - or even worse, mindless eating where there aren't even any decisions being made. Start moving, get off your fat back side!! Ughhhhh!!!
I know what to do. I know how to do it. I CAN do it. So why don't I?
I'm dreading the weather warming up. What am I going to wear? I'm going to be the chick in a turtle neck and jeans again trying to hide myself as if piling layers of clothes will distract people from realizing that there are rolls of fat hiding beneath.
I don't even know what to say to myself.
Has anyone gone through this same thing and actually found a way to get on track and stay there? I mean REALLY stay there. Endurance. Longevity. Truly a lifestyle change. If you have, PLEASE share!!
Is anyone even reading me any more since I've neglected you so?...